letting go

I needed to lose you to find me

Do men define their paths or do gods do?

We speak of moving on, I guess I don't want to?

I'm scared of hating you to love me

Castles we built came crashing down

Were we so stupid to fall in love

Were we blinded by naivensss

Why did the stars align if it weren't meant to be?

I'm sinking underneath but no one to pull me up.

You ain't here to get me through it all.

I'm scared I can't get to think of life without you

You were my escape from reality

I was getting used to you.

If I told you I need you, would you tell me you do?

So many "what ifs" dangling around. 

I guess I was never special??

Was this all a joke? Were we played by the universe

Feelings make a man weak 

Telling a broken man to he happy is similar to telling the mute to speak.

What if I told you we could define our paths?

I never wanted to be alone. I'm so lonely.

I act tough but pillows soaked from tears.

Look all we've made eachother do.

I'm scared when you talk to me- now a stranger

We made love but now we strangers.

Did you fall out of love so to call me stranger

I thought I was done hating myself but it's a cycle.

Love to me ain't a game, it's my religion 

I believed in you. You were my religion 

Tell me how you sleep without me.

How did we lose us?

Shattered dreams

All that fear and pressure.

Tell me what you see when you look at me?

Alas the one that got away??

Love was a magical mysterious ride 

Maybe we tossed caution to the winds.

I kept hoping our love would keep us going

I was afraid to leave you alone but I was lost.

I left, perhaps I should have stayed.

I run from my demons within.

Tell me how it feels without being call Mine.

Does it hurt the same way when I don't hear you call me babe?

Your silence is better now, your actions are loud.

It's lonely down town. I've always wanted you.

Pleasure has turned to pain.

I'm scared you want me outta your head.

I'm too stubborn to change.

I don't want to let go. There's no way to save us.

I worshipped you.

I just wish the universe let me.

Do you really want me outta your head

I was never good at goodbyes.

Never knew I'd come crumbling down.

Craved attention but I guess things ain't how it was

I'm scared you try na get over me like I never existd

I bought the king of beers but I fell off like a bud and I never got wiser.

Can't believe we let eachother down.

Months we had doubts, we kept fighting

Never thought it'd be over.

When you called me baby I wished I'd ever be the only one.

Met a lot of people but nobody's ever felt like you

I'm still hurting inside, it's always been you.

Miss you hence can't sleep.

Do you miss me like I do.

I text but I'm scared to be left on read.

You probably hate that you love me but can't stop.

Alone I stalk your tweets, you seem happier.

I hate we want us but can't be..

Tell me lies, tell me you hate me so I can heal

Help me seal my fate, tell me you wish you never loved me. Tell me your plans to replace me 

Tell me you wish you never dated me. Tell me you meant it when you called me stranger.

I waited up, I'm missing the same old is.

Sometimes I get panic attacks realising we ain't together. I wish we were good enough. I wish we were our final bus stop. I wish we could say something we never knew.

I wish I wished we had a happy ending. 

If only this was but a nightmare.

This is you, this is me, miles apart. I wish you could wake me from this nightmare.

You're a part of me, same as I'm a part of you.

Never felt like we're a thousand miles apart.

How'd we give up on our dreams for us? We thought we're stuck for life.

I wish there was another me and another you so we'd go back to where we met. We could meet half way. You remember you used to say loving me was the only good this year. I guess love wasn't enough.

Jack died for love and rose lived for the cause. How sure am I we wouldn't be torn apart of we together. I wish you left me some some morphins after I left. I wish you held my hands when I said I was leaving. I wish you held me when I walked away.

It's raining in my soul. I wish you fought for me.

I wish I wish. I always fought when you wanted to leave. I wish you tried. We'd be together.

Alas we're here picking broken pieces.

I walked away wishing to be called back.

I got cut picking the broken pieces from losing you.

It's the 6th bottle as I type. Maybe happiness is a state of the mind.

I don't hate you but I hate the hurt we put eachother through. Everytime we burned eachother, we rose like a phoenix. This time we couldn't find eachother through the smoke.

I painted us a happy ending but the paint washed away. Every word we've spoken since I left seems like a hollow street. Everyday life's getting colder. You'd have kept my head from losing all.

I've been told to get you outta my head but I keep hoping I don't lose your footprints on my heart.

It's your love I'm lost in. Though strangers and perhaps nothing to you, I wish you still feel something.

I'm scared your heart's gotten colder,

My ink has dried up. Fate has a beautiful way to wrecking the most beautiful sculptures of love.

Alas you'd always be the one that got away.

Audieu.