Thursday, 30 June 2022

June 2022

June. A torrid time, The 6th month. Derived from Juno, a powerful Roman goddess the protector of marriage and childbirth.

I only made it out with my life. Been a stormy while. I sit back and I'm forced to ponder why I had to go through the experiences, some wounded me, some left a vacuum which can't be filled soon.

The sun and the reason for my smile was taken from me. Replaced with fire and brimstone. The goddess watched in akimbo as anguish and tears became my rhythm. Pillows soaked, not from the awkward weather of Manchester, but from the tears of a weary eyes.

Darkness, an old friend plummeted me into the depths of depression. A dungeon laced with poison to the soul. A stench of failure and echoes of defeat embraces me as I brace the cold metallic bars of my cell.

I commanded the earth, but she didn't yeild. I sang to the winds but she became fiery. I basked in solitude as everything crumbled. Dreams, blueprints and capitals were consumed by a raging fire. I watched them turn to ashes.

Alas, the calm after the storm. The waters are still, the sun smiling again. Though battered, I believe joy comes in the morning. A new song awaits

Sunday, 5 June 2022

dear me

Dear me.
It's alright to be hurt, it's alright to be scared of losing who you love. But most importantly forgive, let go, heal and continue to love.

Most importantly hold no resentment. It's alright to seek reassurance, try to conquer doubts, a doubtful mind is a weak mind. A weak mind becomes insecure in a relationship. 

In the process of recovering, don't let despair and hurt overwhelm your love for her. Healing takes time. Don't overthink it. Loved, loves, love.

I once loved her, still love her will continue to love her. But the question is , do I deserve this kind of love?